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by Alyssa Joseph

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released March 9, 2018

producers: Perry Longo, Alyssa Joseph
engineers: Perry Longo, Brendan Monahan
vocals: Alyssa Joseph
guitar: Alyssa Joseph, Brendan Monahan (present tense.), Rish Singh (what to do?)

recorded at Miner Street Recordings, MAD Dragon Studios, and the wine cellar

mixed by Perry Longo
mastered by Ian Farmer at The Metal Shop

cover photography by Mike Chuang

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Track Name: n i g h t
do you know when it’s gonna hit?
can you be strong through the thick of it?
with my tightened jaw and clenched up fists,
my stomach turns to knots, and shit,
I am sorry for what you’re about to witness.

cause it’s not right, no it’s not alright,
I can’t sleep at night.
at night.

do you know what forever feels like?
cause in the blink of an eye my mind tells me it will be even worse than last time.
I swear it makes no sense. I’m gonna make myself sick again.
gonna make myself sick again.

cause it’s not right. I don’t feel alright,
I can’t sleep at night.
can’t sleep at night.
with the howling wolves and crying sheep, irrational fears echoing,
with the constant whirring worrying my mind,

I hold on tight,
take a pill, make it go away.
I don’t feel alright.
I’m tired of this fight, the fight at night.

cause I can’t sleep at night.
can’t sleep at night.
night. night.
Track Name: what to do?
it’s strange to see their faces as they’re looking up at you,
and you’re trying to deny the fact that you don’t know what to do,
and you’ll be restless in your sleep the night after next,
replaying it.

and oh, oh, oh, you’re searching for the right answers,
and oh, oh, oh, it’s so hard to admit that,
you don’t know what to do, you don’t know what to do, you don’t know -

it’s funny how alone you can feel in a crowded room,
and you’re reaching out to your lifelines, but they can’t comfort you,
and you’re left on your own with your anxieties,
suffocating and contemplating,

it’s scary when the whole world feels like it’s caving in,
and you’re sitting on your front porch steps cause you don’t wanna be locked in.
is there even a higher power or a masterplan? Is anybody watching, watching?

and oh, oh, oh, you’re searching for the right answers,
and oh, oh, oh, it’s so hard to admit that,
you don’t know what to do, you don’t know what to do, you don’t know what to do, to do.
you don’t know what to do, you don’t know what to do, you don’t know what to do

five years from now, when you look back,
will you regret the time it took for you to get on track?
or will the years help you forget feeling lost and empty?
I hope you’re happy, happy.

and oh, oh, oh, keep searching for the right answers,
and oh, oh, oh, it’s so hard to admit that,
you don’t know what to do, you don’t know what to do, you don’t know what to do.
you don’t know what to do, you don’t know what to do, you don’t know what to do.
Track Name: present tense.
there’s a life up ahead,
even though I’m filled with doubt now,
it will work out in the end.

there is hope in my hands,
like water that trickles through my fingertips,
and gets buried in the sand.

so I dig myself out of this hole,
and I build a castle out of nothing at all.
it’s so hard not to know what’s coming next,
and it’s so hard to live in the present tense.

in a month, I’ll be gone,
like the wax at the bottom of a candle,
burn the wick until it’s done.

there’s too much in my mind,
I thought adversity was supposed to bleed out the weakness.

I look inside the mirror,
and I hope I’ll see my reflection a little clearer.
and I dig myself out of this hole,
and I build back up my sense of control.
it’s so hard not to know what’s coming next,
and it’s so hard to live in the present tense.

and I look inside the mirror,
and I hope I’ll see my reflection a little clearer.
and I dig myself out of this hole,
I build back up - I know I'll rise after I fall.
but it’s so hard not to know what’s coming next,
and it’s so hard to live,
yes, it’s so hard to live,
it’s so hard to live in the present tense.

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